It came on me suddenly. I had so many things that I was supposed to be doing and all of a sudden I felt like just giving up! The help I thought I had, the people I thought I could depend on were not there for me. I wanted to give in to the emotions that were so strong and compelling. It would have been so easy to just let it all go and let my feelings have free reign.
That was the trick of the enemy trying to get me to rely on emotions rather than the Word of God. But the Lord had a plan for me and He made a way out for me. He gave me His Word! As a matter of fact, He gave me three verses of Scripture–Psalm 42:5, Psalm 42:11, and Psalm 43:5!!!
Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope in God: for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance, and my God.
Yes, these verses all say the exact same thing! I began to meditate on that Scripture. Why was I cast down?
I felt like I was dealing with a spirit of discouragement in a couple of different areas of my life. A spirit of heaviness was attempting to overwhelm me. But God gave me His Word. It was a question I needed to ponder:
Why art thou cast down, O my soul?
And God is so faithful!!! While I was dealing with this, Ryan LeStrange, a prophet, started a Facebook live teaching about the spirit of heaviness! That’s when I realized that it was the spirit of heaviness that was trying to defeat me. This spirit has to do with depression, discouragement, hopelessness, and several other spirits that are working to get you to give up on your purpose and your assignment.
Yes, I was discouraged but Holy Spirit led me to dig deeper into the issue. What was the source of my discouragement? I had to look at myself to find the door that I opened to allow the enemy access in the first place. I realized that it was disappointment with friends that I had depended on and the hurt that I was experiencing as a result of that that I had been dealing with. Holy Spirit told me that all I had to do was to give that disappointment and hurt over to Him and He would heal it and handle it for me. That’s what I should have done in the first place instead of allowing it to take root in my heart!!! So now that I knew what to do! I gave those things over into His Hands and I got an immediate sense of freedom and joy. The discouragement was gone! I was not meant to carry any of that. I was supposed to cast my cares over on Him. He also told me that I was wrong to judge my friends for what I felt they should have done for me or even to depend on them. I am to trust and depend on God. My responsibility is to love them and pray for them and let God be God. That really freed me up!!!
What burdens are you carrying that God did not give you? What disappointments and hurts have you clung to rather than giving them over to God? What pain have you allowed to fester and breed hopelessness and discouragement in your heart?
The Word of God says, hope in God and praise Him! Cast your cares on Him. He is well able to handle them and give you the victory over all the attacks of the enemy.